Hi

Welcome. Im glad you joined us. I can see you bring powerfull energy here. but you should tell the others more about your self.

Oh talking about myself would just be negative in general,I'm 26, I'm male by birth but I'm more gender-fluid. I went into renal failure at the age of 18, got a kidney at the age of 21 and now my insurance is running out and I may not be able to keep it.

I suffer from Trichotillomania, Avoidant personality disorder, and a good helping of high autistic for good measure. Most of my psychological issues comes from my father's side of the family, my father, when born had a rough life, his mother/my grandmother never fed him, she would put cola and ground up chips in a bottle, even as an infant to feed him. When he grew older, he use to play with my uncle in the woods, one day they were playing with acorns and slingshots, unfortunately an acorn got lodged into my father's eye. My Grandmother, being lazy never took him to the doctor and his eye exploded that night. My grandmother is very narcissistic, she once married a fairly wealthy man who own a small airport, after deceiving the man and taking most of his wealth legally and teasing him, by inviting him to be her made, the man shot himself in the head at his own airport. My previous Uncle who played with my father suffers from schizophrenia and my aunt claws her self when she's nervous.

On my mother's side of the family my negative genetics takes hold. Most people on my mother's side have unrelated kidney issues, including my brother who died of wilm's tumor at the age of 5. Kind of poopy to lie to your brother, telling him your turning the o2 tank higher for him, while it's at max.

I currently live with my parent do to the fact im too weak to work, yet too healthy atm to get disability and we make too much money to get SSI.

My hobbies are Mysticism, programing languages, mostly perl, cybernetics, fringe culture, Transhumanism, and cooking. Please to me you all

I'm in good company With people like you, and I have a offline friend with Mito disease, off the internet, she's the only person I can really talk to and feel comfortable.. well talk isn't a good word to use considering he's deaf because of it. He's only partially wheelchair bound, she can stand for a few moment, but her physical therapy is letting her stand longer and longer.

You on the other hand I am humbled by you, not only you make your own happiness but you don't stop there, you hosting a site just to help people who feel down, so I just wanted to thank you!

Noxifer,

Your friends sounds very inspiring and strong! I hope she finds strength in your friendship.

Thank you for the kind words. I feel it is my purpose to use my disadvantages and turn them into advantages. So, here we are! Glad to have you as a new friend!

Mr LPH,

I agree! Amen!

This is a very good forum, the first time I saw this forum profile thought is chicken soup for the soul, then some healing fiction, poetry and drama. Facing the great pressure of life, sometimes I really feel very irritable, but do not know where to go out, I don't want to talk to anyone, do not want to do anything. That period of time is very difficult. Now I think we can find a heart not happy place, because here have felt unhappy people like us, we listen to each other, tell the sad story to each other,this is an useful way to find new happy thing just like the art-tech i like