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Post by thesumofawe on Dec 29, 2012 23:51:47 GMT -5
So, the last post was in November, so Imma see if I can feed the fire, and I'm going to talk to you about my depression and ask for advice.
Whenever I know that I have school coming up in a couple days, I feel depressed. As of now, I got 4 days I think until school starts again, and really am not feeling good when I think about it.
During school days, at night, there is school when I wake up, and have thoughts of just getting up and running away forever or killing myself or another person.
I don't think it's the fact that I'm picked on why I hate it, I think I just hate school's stress. I'm literally depressed from school, and I praise the short two days at the end of the week.
I've tried thinking optimistically, such as "Two more blocks after this, that's all", and "If I pass these two more years after this, I'll be a free man" But it's just not working out good enough I still feel depressed.
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Post by Wordman on Jan 3, 2013 12:36:56 GMT -5
Thank you for your post, Sum!
Unfortunately, I can relate to your stress here. Often times in life, it's less about the journey and more about the destination. For example, if we have no shoes, and there is a lake of ice, we must cross it in order to reap the rewards of what is waiting on the other side. You simply cannot reach the fireplace and cup of hot chocolate without going through the pains of getting there.
It is normal to have thoughts of leaving the place we are for a more desirable destination, but if we are constantly on the run, at what point are we able to gain footing and take a stand?
If you feel as though your life or that the life of another is in danger, I ask that you take the proper steps in order to make sure that something drastic can be prevented. I am not a professional, just a stranger who cares about you and your quality of life.
Lastly, I have been bullied too. It sucks. You must realize, however, that these individuals are bullying you for one of two reasons. Firstly, they are insecure about themselves or secondly, they want something that you have.
You are obviously an intelligent human being with real emotion and I want you to know that you have a home here.
-Nicholas
P.S. I'm revisiting this post to supply this contact information, should you need it: Suicide Prevention Services Depression Hotline: 630-482-9696
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Post by Wordman on Feb 9, 2013 17:21:15 GMT -5
How are you feeling now, Sum? What have you been up to?
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